Feet

Before I whine, I want to say that I am INCREDIBLY grateful for the bunion surgery that I recieved. I believe that it will improve my quality of life and my husband won't have to listen to me whine about my foot hurting all the time. So now the reason for me blogging.

I am so frustrated. I never thought all this through. I thought, oh ya, my foot will be out of service, i'll be out of it for a week or so then I will just be annoyed on crutches. Ya. I was stupid. I didn't realize that when you are on crutches everything is impossible. I can't put ANY weight on my foot so I can't really stand and do anything. I balance on crutches. Whilst I balance on said crutches I can't carry anything. That includes but is not limited to: a laundry basket, a plate, cup, bowl, blanket, my daughter, a computer...pretty much imagine any object, I can't carry it. And since I can't really fit into normal pants I am in pj's so I don't even have pockets.

Showering has to be done on a chair, which you would think would take a shorter amount of time. Nope. Longer. Even brushing my teeth has to be done while leaning on the toilet. Standing up too long is exhausting. Which eliminates me helping at all around the house. I made a crock pot recipe tonight, loaded dishes and did 3 loads of laundry and that was exhausting and very time consuming for me.

Walking, forget about it. Stairs make me so anxious that I will tip one way or the other that I spend 30 seconds on each stair. Sadly, holding Ileyana is impossible. I can't carry her anywhere so I can't put her to bed, take her to the bathroom, comfort her unless i'm sitting down...anything really. I can't even try to think how I can finish Christmas shopping. I can drive and store trips seem rather difficult.

Now the real kicker. Along with this ample list of things that I can not do, it means that ALL of those things fall on Jon. Getting me water, taking care of Ileyana, cleaning the house and everything else there is to do.

Again, I am so grateful for the chance I have had to fix a problem I knew would just get worse and i'm young enough to heal fast, that doesn't mean it doesn't come with it's challenges. I took for granted how important every body part is to function. It's amazing what a simple foot can change in your daily routine. I am excited in February to FINALLY be back to normal. It will be wonderful. Not only for me, but for Ileyana who is sick of me not being able to help, my knees who may or may not fall off from all the crawling i've done, and most of all, that poor husband of mine who has had the burden of mother, father and school duties all fall on his over exhausted shoulders. I'm glad Jon is patient.

PS. I did this not for attention or to hear, "Oh no, poor girl that must be horrible." I blog to vent. Now that I have had ample amounts of venting time, I feel a bit better. Still stressed, but glad that I got this done. In a few months all this will be so worth it, even if it's hard now :)