Mother see, Mother do

So to start out, let us begin yesterday with me crying on the bed. Jon asked what was wrong and I told him that I feel pointless in my life. Not because my life is meaningless, but because the world tells me it is. Being a mother and homemaker is no longer enough. You have to do something else. Work, go to school, have a degree...etc. Not saying that those things aren't good, they are. yet for me, i've always wanted to be a mom. I love it. And sometimes I feel like when others ask what i'm doing and I say "I'm a mom." The reaction I get is, "Anything else?"

Well no...isn't it enough? I think it is. I wake up before 8, get Ileyana breakfast, clean the house, get her lunch, do laundry, cook dinner, do the shopping, babysit other kids on occasion, have "school times" with Ily. I don't just sit around all the time. My life is active and eventful. And also, it is exactly the way I have always dreamed of it being. I always wanted to be that "soccer mom." That is who I am. I throw my life into my family and enjoy every second of it. Why does society want every mom to always be doing something else? I don't want to miss out on my children growing up.

Granted, I DO want an education. I want to be able to have a degree, just not yet. I want to enjoy the time I have with my family. I want to be there when my children take their first steps, say their first words and all other manner of firsts. For me, it's not something I am willing to give up. So even if the world deems me as "lazy," being a mom is anything but. And I would take it over anything else in a heartbeat :)